The Two Week Wait

Mr Smiley on the ovulation test has gone back into hibernation & I am officially in the churning emotional waters of the Two Week Wait.

During the first few official TWWs we went through, I felt excited.  We had moved from randomly hoping a pregnancy would show up just from doing nothing to stop it, to watching for a happy face to appear in an attempt to target that lil' ovum more precisely.  Dropping almost $50 a month on something to pee on seemed like a great step in the right direction. I was able to know when my body was gearing up to open the gates- not unlike the beginning of a horse race.  We could try to catch that little horse as he made his way down the midway.

After the miscarriage, I switched to the "advanced" Mr Smiley who is flashy to indicate higher  estrogen levels and then turns steady for 2 days to indicate the LH surge.  Because this extra level of smiley-hood, THAT must be what I've been missing. blink.

These days, I feel like doing the LH test is just a part of the morning routine, like brushing my teeth or feeding the dogs.  It almost doesn't seem connected to the possibility of a pregnancy.