So there are these kids...

As my husband and I are in the middle of changing jobs and still TTC (albeit halfheartedly),  I have been paroozing the adoptuskids.org site with a good bit of regularity.   And I saw them.  THEM.  The kids that I feel so drawn to, I almost feel like I recognize them. They are a sib group and pretty much everything I ever wanted in kids.  (I know, whatever that means, right?)  I talked about them with my husband, showed them to my mom, and daydreamed about showing them around my house for the first time...  is that insane?  maybe.

The reality is that we have not even started the paperwork, had not previously given much thought to adopting older kids, or even adopting out of foster care.  If we started TODAY we are months away from being approved to even get more information about these kids.  And they are awesome, so they will probably already have a different forever home if we were to get to that point.

BUT, it sure did get my wheels turning.  I don't think I really seriously thought about adopting in such a real way until I read their little mini-bios. I am looking around my house and picking it apart. Noticing for the first time everything that a social worker would mark us down for on a home visit or whatever inspection.  

The dogs aren't as well-trained as they could be.  ding*

The second floor bedroom doesn't have a fire escape ladder. ding*

Some of the things are me just being overly hard on myself.  On the other hand, some of the things would be legitimate concerns for someone checking out the safety of our home. So... I guess  I'll call and ask about getting the process started in case these kids DON'T get adopted right away, or in case we see other kids that would be just as perfect for us.

In any event, I will start a real list of things I see as concerns that I can start to take care of. Then I'll start to take care of them.  :)  It feels so much more proactive than peeing on a stick and watching for the happy face.

What I want to say on Facebook:

Wow, looks like every last person on my news feed has a new baby in their lives these last two weeks. Congratulations every damn person but me!

I'm really glad you have had TWO kids in the time I've been trying to have one.  Four kids, four dads?  Lucky you for always hitting the fertility nail square on the head!  Yay you!

And, It's really great how YOU have made sure to share every ridiculous detail of your daughter-in-law's pregnancy with me as I was trying to recover from my miscarriage.  Now that the kid is born, oh YES I can't wait to see all 862 photos of your rather hideous grandchild!

And OH the nieces & nephews!  Babies for EVERYONE!

I'm going to check out the news sites now... oh, why lookie there, William and Kate.

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Sigh.